I am who I am

Thanks to your harsh way
Thanks to your egoism...

Now that I have a chance to practice forgivenss
To practice open-mindedness
To practice acceptance of own mistakes...

Thanks to your cold, humanless feeling
Thanks to your inconsideration...

Now that I have better understood who I am
Better understood that my heart is too soft for a world full of inconsideration and masking images

I am stronger now
As I understand myself better now - when one turns anger into forgivenss
The feeling is absolutely peaceful~
This is what a human like me is looking for
Again~ Thanks to your piercing words that send me a grade higher, that make me realize about the cruelty of this world!
^p^

falsing imagery!

What a shocking fact to be surfaced -- that a person can pretend to be nothing happen in front of you, but actually she is taking all your words into her revengeful thought and by using the sword of words to stab you from nowhere!

Well, since this is what happening, remember, carpricorn is not someone who can sit still and be peacefully taken over, one day you will pay for it...

Since there is not easy to accept own flaws, I will not waste my time trying to get my feelings to be shown in front of you~ because now that I know you are too shallow in taking other's comment and that you are really negatively sensitive ~

Anyway, be as happy as I would be and God knows egosim will not set you far from where you are now~

~Miserable victory hunger soul~

It was not long before I managed to find out whom, someone I trusted and adored was actually a victory hunger soul that will manipulate any miserable and unethical techniques in winning over her friends ... what a truely disappointing fact to be surfaced right in front of me.

No doubt, to have the fighting spirit in winning is good, but to win in an unacceptable way through dirty techniques as well as unwelcomed invasion, plus the over confident reasons to suppport own wrong judgement is totally unaccpetable, and I would not consider such a victory as glory, but rather a false imagery of fooling the audience!

What a fake, contradicting manners that mask the true self of a gobblin! Hate Pretentious! Hate when the urge of winning prirotize everything in life, including the precious relationship and own self morality!

16-8-2008